hope n trust

this blog about hope and mainly trust who do we trust family,friends,pets,boyfriend,girlfriend,ex,ex friend or yourself and what do we trust on our secrets,story,past or your lifeline but do we see whats going on if we open up to anyone but family off course they will tell someone otherwise why would they ask so be careful of who you trust and know your circle and be very suspicious like last night i went out for dinner with friend and mum and my mum got confused between a drink or desert and even a waitress was talking about us behind our backs so let me ask you again to reassure you who do you rely on and trust for me i only trust family and no one else cuz they will be backstabbers, 2 face people smiling at you as they walk away and acting nice to you and as soon you look away from them they start showing there true colors and self but then theirs hope why do we hope on the person or people to come back that has hurted and back stabbed you once a backstabber always will be a backstabber cuz they will do it again and the number one rule about this dont you ever believe or accept there apologies and dont worry karma will get these kind of people twice as bad as they done to you so just wait for the moment cuz they only luring you back to there trap just to hurt you again cuz once they make you happy and comfortable and everything normal again they will attack you again aka hurt and backstabe  you again and they will keep doing this til you hit rock bottom and they only there for your drama,gossip and story just to spread it around to people they and you know and you only know yourself and the truth so dont believe them and carry on and everyone has weak spot so find it and attack back and remember dont open up to someone

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anxiety

this blog is about anxiety or whatever you call it of how i deal with it or actually what happens in my view and i know people who will judge about this just saying negative comments will be deleted and you will be blocked this apply to all my social medias dont get me wrong you all allowed to comment your thoughts on my blog but hey we all deal and go through things differently so anxiety rant here we go. what is anxiety and what its like ?. anxiety to me is like your own demon that your facing one minute your fine everything going your way than BOOM!! anxiety comes up and changes everything and everyone around you freaks out like once your all happy,positive,cheery,out going than all of sudden your quite,jumpy,scared and out of focus of everything around you or lets say out of it all you want to do is run to your room go to corner or bed and curl up in ball and complete hate and overthink about everything and yourself and thats when anti social comes in that all of sudden you hate everyone and especially people and get very annoyed of everything and everyone congrats you just reached level 2 of anxiety being the edge everything you do and say is dangerous your senses are tripping out eye vision is blury or goes complete blackout hearing is going in and out or fuzzy like high pitch noise and your mouth gets dry as a bone than your shaking and sweating your body cant make up its mind if it wants to be cold or hot but this is called hot and cold flushes but you hear voices in your head saying things that whatever you do is dangerous so were cotouis and careful oh wait there more visions of events happening and somehow we believe it all as they say been there done that but we haven't am i right so anxiety takes you away from reality make everything seems fake like a dream it has it ways to make us trip out and feel weird which keeps us at this are same place the corner or the bed like we must stay at home til we fine again and we all have anxiety for different reasons not sure what gonna happen,scared of yourself,people,place,,worried about yourself or having fear to see group or one enemy all the time which brings me to here PSYCHIC senses as normal casual person have say about 5 senses which is SMELL,SIGHT,TASTE,HEAR AND FEEL but psychic senses is SMELL,SIGHT,TASTE,HEAR,FEEL AND SPIRITUAL SENSE ... we can hear what your thinking like sooky in true blood and we can sense your emotions of how you feel emotionally.. so i know what you feel or think about me but ive been in room full with every single person who hate me and oh my gosh that was so bad for me i can sense how thick and severe and how bad the negativity energy in that room was feeling unwanted,hated and uncomfortable in that room that i had severe anxiety attack so bad please let me know i am not only one who had anxiety attack so bloody bad that i could not move without vomiting and can not see yep anxiety we hate you

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